


Lovers under the pier.
The ramblings of a frustrated photographer



Lovers under the pier.
After eating at Dojo I glanced up and saw these beautiful God rays.
A tender little moment on the ferry.
Mango sale as seen from above on 207th.
Trash as seen from above... We REALLY need to do something about the ENORMOUS amount of garbage we generate each day, month, year.
from a stained glass window that's avoided vandalism for some odd reason.
Odd buzzer configuration in Soho. Rube Goldberg would be proud.
My claustrophobic, sardine-like riding experience from West 4th to 125th on the Express A train at rush hour.
Same car minutes later.
Julie,
I will shoot Jaime and Ally and do a fine job. I took the job and will do my best. If $150 is the final rate, as much as I appreciate you thinking of me I cannot possibly work for that amount again. Stupidly, I assumed expenses would be covered. But, after paying for cabs and editing, less than $100 isn't worth my time nor effort. I wouldn't even shoot for that amount while in college (many many years ago). I realize this has nothing to do with you, you have a budget to deal with.Many of my editorial clients pay an average of $300 for a few hours of shooting, plus they cover cab fees (average $35) plus $100-150 for edit/burn Cd plus assistants if needed. Even Conde Nast, my least paying client, covers ALL expenses.I DO understand that these are lean times but paying a working photographer $150 for any published photo using professional equipment is unreasonable and absurd.Thanks again for thinking of me,Stephen
Dear friends,
This message is to notify you all that I'll be getting married soon. Any further communication from me will be greatly limited. My new spouse will occupy a minimum of 75% of my time. Also, 85% of what I say and do will be monitored by her/him. In the event we have children, that figure will rise to approximately 95%. With one exception: I will secretly tell my closest friends (always in a whisper) about the unfortunate state of my sex life and how much better it was before all of this happened. Also, be advised that everything you say, do and entrust with me WILL be discussed with my spouse. There will be no secrets between me and my spouse. Therefore, "The Friendship Vault" is now officially closed.FCF--"Family Comes First"--is my new mantra. I will continue to take your calls and emails as long as they do not interrupt family time or cause disruption in our family core. No phone calls after 10:00pm are permitted (might wake up the babies... God forbid). Unexpected "drop-ins" will no longer be permitted nor tolerated. The duration of any long term visits will not exceed 4 days, with 2 weeks notice of arrival required. Any time alone during these visits will be greatly frowned upon.From this day forward I will no longer be allowed to do the following:
- Stay out past 10:00pm (without phone interruption)
- Drink or swear to excess.
- Dine alone or with friends if spouse is in the same city.
- Take any unplanned drives with or without friends exceeding 1/2 hour without permission from spouse (unlikely, due to excessive spousal eye rolling and guilt).
Road trips with friends may be discussed but are actually impossible. This is non-negotiable.
Also, there will be:
- No porn.
- No wrestling.
- No happy hours without spouse present.
- No drunkenness unless spouse present and drinking same amount.
- No hunting, fishing or photo excursions.
- No motorcycles (unless spouse approves and is ALWAYS on back).
In the future I will:
- Attend church more frequently than before.
- Attend functions (birthdays, weddings, graduations, etc., etc.) more frequently.
- Go to counseling if needed.
- Attend future PTA meetings.
- Attend school functions (plays, recitals, etc.)
I have willingly chosen this new path. I have entered this "institution" with the determination to be the best spouse and parent that I can possibly be... God willing. Past friendships will be fondly remembered but I must follow this new path honorably by focusing on my new direction.
Be well my friends. Perhaps we can renew a similar path (still heavily restricted) in 22-25 years after the children have moved away.I hereby willingly and happily give up 95% of my independence and freedom.Note: In the event of divorce and outcome of custody, please see revised Friendship Contract #2.
Two "digital" images from long ago... (as a buffer before my shit-storm rant)
I hear ya brotha. However... I like the fact that when you shoot film it is what it is. Unless you use graduated ND filters your sky is washed out. But that's real. Photographers are adding clouds and making skies unnatural and fake. Like over retouching skin to make it look flawless. We all know it's bullshit. Even the French (or Italians) are starting to think over retouching is bullshit. Everything you see is fake. Where's the realism? What happened to waking up at 5:00am to get a good sunrise? Nope, people are shooting at noon, burning in the sky, adding clouds... it's all bullshit. And, HDR? It's bullshit too. Looks so contrived. Yes I think digital has its place... like snake churches. It's so dark in there you need latitude. Yes, you're right. But, that's more documentation than making/creating art. I think the image is almost secondary in photography, it's the process, the love of the organic quality, the waking up early and waiting for that perfect sun or waiting for that last bit of light at dusk. How organic is sitting at a screen sipping coffee and adding clouds that really weren't there? Might as well get a job with Pixar. Why leave the house? Create images from stock photos. Shoot landscapes out the window of your car? Why bother to walk past 20 feet from a scenic overlook? Might drip some of your Starbucks. Fuck that... make a sacrifice. Get up at 4:00am, hike into the woods with a Hasselblad, slap on a 50mm and shoot whatever it looks like. Film doesn't lie for the most part (until it's digitally scanned), digital is the great visual lie. Most of today's photos are lies... mine included. I felt like a photographer when I would shoot Polaroid type 55 or 665 and look at the image and see those edges, the chemistry marks. I felt like a photographer dipping that paper in that liquid and watching the print come up. Now I feel like everyone else.... There's no sacrifice. It's all related to the general laziness of our society. Take the easier route... no fuss, no muss, no dirty hands, no cleanup, no hiking, no waking up early, no nothing. It's all bullshit. And, I'm as guilty as the next guy. Oh, it's fun, it's entertaining, like Pixar. You want "Toy Story" or "Gone with the Wind"? "Monsters Inc" or "The Wizard of Oz"? "Raging Bull" or "Shrek"? Digital is a lie... it's all fake. I'm going to go shoot a roll of 120 since my fucking 5D piece of digital shit won't focus. Rant on motherfucker... rant on. I feel better. 






Actually the past few days were very warm but today was magnificent. Low 70s, no humidity with a cool breeze. I hung out with the locals down on the corner. Last Saturday around 4:30 my new friend Willy, who I photographed a week ago, was stabbed multiple times by some crazed woman who attacked him with a broken wine bottle. Right there on the very corner we all hang out on. He's now in ICU at a local hospital. Willy's in bad shape and police are looking for the woman.